Should a 16 year old smoke marijuana again for a better musical experience?

I started to smoke during summer twice a month for 4 months till spring time my parents found out. I have been sober ever since. I have matured drastically from a personal standpoint. I have become pionate about music so I would like to increase the music experience by getting "high". The problem is that I would feel bad about my parents not knowing plus I might feel like I let myself down.